poems about you..to my last boyfriend..

This is you..

I don't know where this is heading but i know what i'm feeling

and everytime you call I smile and my heart skip a beat
I can't believe this is happening again
I have to admit that i'm falling
for someone who I shouldn't be
but thats always been me
my heart always desires a challenge
i'm not sure if i'm ready for this
and i'm not even sure of what to do
Friends tell me to stay away from you
Cuz you'll hurt me in the end
but hey my heart hurting is a trend
Still afraid of whats to come
and contemplating whether i should stay or go
but my answer always end up "i dunno"
and there i go back in your room
layin in your bed, kisses and cuddles
what else can be said
except that ur adorable wtih ur glasses on
and when u look at me i can't help but give into
what you need
I pray i make the right decisions
ones that won't make my heart bleed

Lessons Learned

Used to worry about everyone's happiness except my own

Now I focus on me and my first born

No more dwelling on what could happen

It's not even my concern

Time to let go of the past

And take the struggles and pain as lessons learned

A weight lifted off my shoulder and I feel free

Of the chains that held me

Neglected to see the signs and created my own reality

That would've ultimately trapped me for eternity

So what ever happened to sincerity?

Diverse Emotions were just that

"Alphabetical figures that only existed in words" that never formed

Taking the present as what it is

Only trusting in my instincts and my word

Again another lesson learned

The "love" that I've had couldn't have been real

How could it be if all they did was hurt me?

Each one bruised my heart deliberately

They would say it's not true but it happened

Over and over continuously

Empty promises that one day it will stop

Now I've come to my senses and as the

Calluses on my heart continue to form

I will no longer mourn

And take it all as lessons learned